发觉我不能想人，一想人就会失眠。。。

why we connot relax for a while ? too ambitious sometimes is harmful. do not tell me to concentrate on my work, i konw the pace.

suddenly, i closed up all the websites i am looking at and opened the blog which i had added words long before.

i was suppose to write here in chinese but, maybe i have been expressing my feeling in english for a long time, it is hard for me to change in chinese. chinese is too straight-forward and every body can understand, maybe that's the reason i still using enlgish rather than chinese when i dont wanna make it so apparent.

maggie almost sends me a mail everyday, things she talking about are tiny things happen in her life. she said she dont expect me to reply, but i know that feeling. we are all waiting for something, the only difference is who we are waiting for.

 

days here is very plain. it is too plain that i dont even remember my birthday until my mum call me to celebrate it. this year's birthday was quite silent, no drinking and eating, just sitting here and drinking a can of cola. sorry for the cola, i know it is bad for health, but i just cannot refuse drinking it. i know better than many of you, but if we care so much, how can we enjoy our short presence on this beautiful world.

everything is poisonous, it is the dose which differenciates a poison from a remedy. truth. i will drink less but dont ask me to quit.

 

the suicide in the campus is quit shocked, i went to the memerization ceremony, just to send my sadness for the victim. but too many people are using his death for they own interest, it digusted me a lot, so i just went away after a few minutes.

 

i had a long chat with v.v, i think it was a long chat, though it was just one-way communication.  men sometimes are silly, for no reason. the reason i got silly is that i dont make things too complicated, i cannot handle complicated things, becasuse many problems have a straight forward solution. and i like the simplest one.

 

that's it. i think, ending with a quote of lyric, let's waste time, chasing cars. silly is sometimes not that simple, am i right? dear all.